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Skool
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Pardon the lack of update, but I felt like I didn't have much worth saying...but now I do.
After three years, I'm finally returning to academia. I'll be starting school on the 18th of August, and I'll be entering the field of graphic design. I'm very excited to have a place where I can learn more about art and careers regarding it, as well as find myself challenged, and in pursuit of something that I enjoy doing. It hasn't really hit me yet, this whole going back to school thing. I suppose it's kind of surreal, though there is still that deeply rooted fear in me that I will only make it in to fail devastatingly once again. I'm currently under transfer probation, which in of itself, is already anxiety inducing...but due to my short funds and lack of scholarships, I'm just going to pile on the challenges.
In order to maintain enough income to be able to pay not only for the gas of commute (I do not have the luxury of living on campus this year), but groceries and my tuition (see 'lack of scholarships'), I'm going to have to be working part time to keep up with this. My current full-time employers were generous enough to offer me a part time position. But the only catch is that it is a graveyard shift, working from 11:30pm to around 2:30 or 5:30 in the morning, depending on the day. I'm uneasy about this based around what classes I might end up with timing wise, but my boss has said that he will work with me on my schedule, so I'm grateful for that. I wouldn't mind a day job, but I'm not about to snub a job either when it's handed to me. It also pays more than my current employment level...and I'll be transferring over with someone I already know from my own shift...so less scary...
I've already decided that if it does not work out well with my scheduling, and I end up trying to run myself into the ground by working it, I'll go ahead and drop the job at my current work and find somewhere else to work part time. As stipulation of my probation after all, I've got to keep my GPA above 2.0. And if I'm dropping letter grades because I can't stay awake/keep up with my work due to my schedule, I'm hardly going to be doing so hot, I think...
In the future, based on what happens with my skill/time/work ethic/oh god planning, I may see fit to open up commissions, though I'm not sure what the interest would be...so consider this an interest check?
I'll let you guys know about more stuff as it happens.
-Owl
After three years, I'm finally returning to academia. I'll be starting school on the 18th of August, and I'll be entering the field of graphic design. I'm very excited to have a place where I can learn more about art and careers regarding it, as well as find myself challenged, and in pursuit of something that I enjoy doing. It hasn't really hit me yet, this whole going back to school thing. I suppose it's kind of surreal, though there is still that deeply rooted fear in me that I will only make it in to fail devastatingly once again. I'm currently under transfer probation, which in of itself, is already anxiety inducing...but due to my short funds and lack of scholarships, I'm just going to pile on the challenges.
In order to maintain enough income to be able to pay not only for the gas of commute (I do not have the luxury of living on campus this year), but groceries and my tuition (see 'lack of scholarships'), I'm going to have to be working part time to keep up with this. My current full-time employers were generous enough to offer me a part time position. But the only catch is that it is a graveyard shift, working from 11:30pm to around 2:30 or 5:30 in the morning, depending on the day. I'm uneasy about this based around what classes I might end up with timing wise, but my boss has said that he will work with me on my schedule, so I'm grateful for that. I wouldn't mind a day job, but I'm not about to snub a job either when it's handed to me. It also pays more than my current employment level...and I'll be transferring over with someone I already know from my own shift...so less scary...
I've already decided that if it does not work out well with my scheduling, and I end up trying to run myself into the ground by working it, I'll go ahead and drop the job at my current work and find somewhere else to work part time. As stipulation of my probation after all, I've got to keep my GPA above 2.0. And if I'm dropping letter grades because I can't stay awake/keep up with my work due to my schedule, I'm hardly going to be doing so hot, I think...
In the future, based on what happens with my skill/time/work ethic/oh god planning, I may see fit to open up commissions, though I'm not sure what the interest would be...so consider this an interest check?
I'll let you guys know about more stuff as it happens.
-Owl
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Black Storylocke Update
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Well...I didn't want to say it, and I've been attempting to figure it out for hours now to no avail...but it appears that my ROM of my Black Nuzlocke I've been running has corrupted, and my data is gone...I was around five badges into the game, if I recall correctly (playthrough had been put on hold until I had gathered some semblance of a grip back on my life, and now that I have it I decided to start back on it again to catch up some information). I still have some information written down for everything up to arrival to Driftveil, as well as concepts and ideas beyond that...but having lost all my data was kind of a blow to the lungs, if you know what I'm talking about. I'm not sure where that leaves my storylocke. Half-finished is more likely the case...I'm probably going to set it on the backburner...possibly store it away. I'm not sure if I'll write up to what I have or not, as I don't see much purpose in writing a half complete story with nothing more to go on.
I'll let you guys know what happens next when I figure out where to go with it.
Mondays, huh?
-Owl
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God Everything Needs Updating
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-sneezes on the dust- Okay. Hi. Hello. Does this thing still work? Are you all there, watchers of mine, or have I slipped off the radar? Yikes...okay...so, here's the lowdown on what's going on lately!
I have moved to a new house, which has wi-fi. Yay wi-fi! This means I now have communication to the internet again! Hoorah! But I now need to find a job and figure out what I'm going to do with my lazy butt in this new town. As you've probably seen by my stagnant gallery, I've done very little art and writing lately aside from roleplay posts on a forum and sketches that are really just not worth showing. So I need to kick my artistic muse back into gear and get stuff done.
Starting, hopefully, with my Nuzlocke. Retribution has kind of been left to gather dust, and for that, I'm sorry. I've got all sorts of ideas, but they all kind of get blown away when I look at other Nuzlockes and go 'damn, I really didn't think this part of that through' or 'wow my world building sucks'. In other words, I'm getting distracted by others, feeling unconfident, and really need to turn the blinders on and remember that I started writing it because I had my own story to tell. Easier said than done, but hey, the next chapter is already back in progress.
As for other art...well...ehhhh...we'll see where it goes xD Thanks for sticking with me guys, if you're still here. Hopefully we'll see more stuff around sharpish.
-Owl
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An Informative Update
2 min read
Just in case you needed it.
Things at home and my own depression aside, there's been a few changes. For one, I've cheered up somewhat, and it seems that according to genetics and past experiences, my depressions are bound to happen on their own again. Plus it's December and we're going to have to get ready to say goodbye to warm sun for days at a time, not to mention warmth overall...But anyway. Updates.
Cable and internet have been cut. We have none of those amenities anymore. I'm online, but never as often as I'd like to be (I was practically glued to my screen and I'm now learning to adapt in other methods). There's a coffee shop near my house that I can visit for wi-fi if I feel the need, as well as the library, but I have a feeling that with holidays it's going to be a little difficult to get to either of those over the season.
I'll cope.
As for when it'll come back, we've got no solid date. My dad's paying the house bills on a single income, and I still haven't been able to find work. So things are still looking a little grim. In the meantime, don't expect much to change. I rarely post art as it is, so there's really not much to fear. But just a heads up to any who might be looking for me. I'm going to be a bit out of reach.
Happy Holidays in the mean time.
-Owl
Things at home and my own depression aside, there's been a few changes. For one, I've cheered up somewhat, and it seems that according to genetics and past experiences, my depressions are bound to happen on their own again. Plus it's December and we're going to have to get ready to say goodbye to warm sun for days at a time, not to mention warmth overall...But anyway. Updates.
Cable and internet have been cut. We have none of those amenities anymore. I'm online, but never as often as I'd like to be (I was practically glued to my screen and I'm now learning to adapt in other methods). There's a coffee shop near my house that I can visit for wi-fi if I feel the need, as well as the library, but I have a feeling that with holidays it's going to be a little difficult to get to either of those over the season.
I'll cope.
As for when it'll come back, we've got no solid date. My dad's paying the house bills on a single income, and I still haven't been able to find work. So things are still looking a little grim. In the meantime, don't expect much to change. I rarely post art as it is, so there's really not much to fear. But just a heads up to any who might be looking for me. I'm going to be a bit out of reach.
Happy Holidays in the mean time.
-Owl
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Losing Touch
3 min read
This journal just ended up me needing to talk. Put things down on paper. Disregard it.
I've not been eating very much. I feel like I'm sleeping more than ever. Just feeling generally listless and useless. Maybe I'm getting sick. Better yet maybe I'm just falling right back into depression. I've stopped going to church on Wednesdays, which is something I loved to do. It involved letting me spend time with friends...and now I just don't want to face them. I hate pretending that the world is okay with me. I hate seeing that despite our hardships, it continues to spin...I feel like I have no purpose right now. I've not got the funds to attend university, and I can't find a job..so I'm here all day. Sleeping or sitting around wondering when something will happen and keeping my phone on hand in case of a miraculous call-back.
Still job hunting. No luck. No call backs. Even when I call them to be the 'squeaky wheel' they give me nothing but excuses and by the third or fourth call-back I'm sure they're just trying to get me to go away because it'll never happen. My standards are falling to very low levels, and I may even find myself trying for fast food which was something I never wanted. I've got two places to look into today...maybe I'll get lucky.
National Novel Writing month starts in about a week. I'm not ready for it. Hell I'm not even ready for Halloween. I'm not sure I'm going to make it this year with the noveling. Stacking this listlessness on top of a deadline and it's just a recipe for critical error. I've decided to try a different story than my Nuzlocke for it, but I'm still going to work on it when the month of November is over. Things are just going to...get a little bit hectic.
We're moving. December 1st is when my dad keeps pushing that we need to get out of here. I need a job by then. Both my sister and dad keep pushing that into my face as if it'll help. It doesn't. I think I've resigned to the fact that there really is nothing I can do to fix this. We're losing the house and we just have to pack up and move on.
I'm thinking about opening commissions. My 'talents' aren't very widely ranged. I don't think that it'd generate much interest. But I need the money. I don't even have funds to put gas in my car much less help pay the rent on this new house that we're going to move into. I've already heard plenty of mean-spirited threats from my sister about her kicking me out if I couldn't figure out a way to lend a hand...so I have to figure out something.
I've not been eating very much. I feel like I'm sleeping more than ever. Just feeling generally listless and useless. Maybe I'm getting sick. Better yet maybe I'm just falling right back into depression. I've stopped going to church on Wednesdays, which is something I loved to do. It involved letting me spend time with friends...and now I just don't want to face them. I hate pretending that the world is okay with me. I hate seeing that despite our hardships, it continues to spin...I feel like I have no purpose right now. I've not got the funds to attend university, and I can't find a job..so I'm here all day. Sleeping or sitting around wondering when something will happen and keeping my phone on hand in case of a miraculous call-back.
Still job hunting. No luck. No call backs. Even when I call them to be the 'squeaky wheel' they give me nothing but excuses and by the third or fourth call-back I'm sure they're just trying to get me to go away because it'll never happen. My standards are falling to very low levels, and I may even find myself trying for fast food which was something I never wanted. I've got two places to look into today...maybe I'll get lucky.
National Novel Writing month starts in about a week. I'm not ready for it. Hell I'm not even ready for Halloween. I'm not sure I'm going to make it this year with the noveling. Stacking this listlessness on top of a deadline and it's just a recipe for critical error. I've decided to try a different story than my Nuzlocke for it, but I'm still going to work on it when the month of November is over. Things are just going to...get a little bit hectic.
We're moving. December 1st is when my dad keeps pushing that we need to get out of here. I need a job by then. Both my sister and dad keep pushing that into my face as if it'll help. It doesn't. I think I've resigned to the fact that there really is nothing I can do to fix this. We're losing the house and we just have to pack up and move on.
I'm thinking about opening commissions. My 'talents' aren't very widely ranged. I don't think that it'd generate much interest. But I need the money. I don't even have funds to put gas in my car much less help pay the rent on this new house that we're going to move into. I've already heard plenty of mean-spirited threats from my sister about her kicking me out if I couldn't figure out a way to lend a hand...so I have to figure out something.
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